Ex-FBaholic

So, I'm sitting here on my blogger with one other tab open ... and HOLY CRAP GUESS WHAT!??

the tab that is open ISN'T Facebook!!!!!! ....

woah ... big deal! I have joined the ranks of those who are taking a .. b..b...bre...breaaaa...

break

(whew! that was tough to say!)

from Facebook ...

For once, I'm not procrastinating because Facebook is glued to my tabs list!

...

I'm procrastinating because I'm too lazy to start getting ready for school ... :/

BUT at least it's not Facebook! ... right?

crap... if I can't use the 'i'm addicted to Facebook' excuse anymore, I guess I need to get busy, huh?

packing....

(oh the joy?)

These are the times I wish I was a skinny girl ... they fit more clothes in a suitcase at once =P

(that ain't gonna happen!)

Anywaaay ... so yeah, despite not being on Facebook I still:

1. procrastinate
2. spend useless time on the internet blogging
3. don't get anything done

this should be interesting! hahaha

Who woulda thunk it??

MonicaDee's giving up Facebook! ;)

MonicaDee :)

Easy Avenue? Nah!

so I'm looking at previous posts on here and I can't help but do one thing:

LAUGH. hysterically.

The irony of life entertains me. For a few reasons...

...My post about skipping chapel and feeling bad about it and making it a one time thing?

It was like a thirty time thing ... like seriously. I skipped chapel so much in both of my semesters that I barely made my spiritual formation credits requirement!

((THANK YOU S.I. CENTER!!!))

...my post about accepting change and being okay with it and it's for the better lah dee dah?

I wasn't "okay" with it. I was at first, but eventually, I got reeeeal depressed.

......the kind of depressed that puts ya in counseling.

((But I sucked it up and now I'm MUCH better))

College isn't what I thought it'd be ... college is not even remotely care-free. Not when you're me, at least ... Definitely not when you're me ;)

I slacked off miserably and went through two weeks of hell trying to catch up... both semesters.

Talk about cramming? I was the queen of cramming stuff into last minute

((...the last LATE minute, that is.))

I did soul searching and came back with negative results because I forgot to soul search in the presence of God ... the results of my soul searching was a few months without the peace of God inside of me ...

I thought being at a Christian college meant I'd be fed constantly and I wouldn't have a care in the world when it came to my walk with God - it would be constant growth ...

WRONG.

Being at a Christian college doesn't make my walk any easier...

so what did I learn? Because I had to have learned SOMETHING...

I came to a pt in my life where my walk couldn't be based on what others thought it was, or what I pretended it was ... God wanted a relationship with ME, not who I pretended to be ((the "high and mighty" Christian girl who went to a Christian college and was going into ministry!!))

I came to a pt where I realized that God did not exist in the lies of "I'm okay" and "Just praising through the storm!" because really, I was screaming and yelling at Him ... not praising. And I wasn't okay.

I came to a pt where God met me, said He loved me but not who I pretended to be...

I came to a pt where I realized I wanted a legit, love God and drop all of who I am and become all of who He wants me to be, relationship with God...

It was a great pt to be at :)

Who woulda thunk it? Monicadee opened her eyes!

MonicaDee :)

*clears throat* ATTENTION NEW ARRIVALS!

So...

it's the 2nd semester of my college career...

(oooh.. sounds so important!)

and I'm sitting at my desk...

in my new room..

with my new roomate...

on a new floor...

with a new insight to change...

LoTs. of. cHanGe...

and I'm okay with it ... it's brought about some awesome things :) I am up earlier (woah), on time more (much bigger woah), and even better - I have internet access...

yes, that's the best part because I'm a facebook/internet junky...

(My name is Monica Taylor and I'm addicted to the world wide web)

*back to reality*

so I'm at my desk..

in my new room...

with my new roomate...

on a new floor...

with a new access to the internet more often...

but serving an unchanging God...

And I think I LOVE it... :)

Who woulda thunk it?

MonicaDee is okay with change!

MonicaDee <3

(Change feels good!)

got sleep?

So, I don't think sleep exists in college.... seriously. it's more like NAPS.

And because of my lack of sleep.. I skipped chapel today...


SHAME ON ME!!!

*shakes finger at own nose*

well, considering I don't plan on making a habit out of it, it's not a big deal.. right?

RIGHT.

but still..

who woulda thunk it?

MonicaDee skipped church!!

MonicaDee <3☼

Saved by the bell...?

Haha, so, yesterday in church I forgot to turn off my cell phone... I was JUST thinking about 'good thing I turned my cell phone off' and BAM it rings ... whooops... but the part that made me laugh was it was AS SOON as we said AMEN that the phone rang ... someone goes 'saved by the bell' and i laughed... really hard LOL.

who woulda thunk it? MonicaDee actually has a cellphone now that can go off in the middle of chapel ;-) whoops LOL better keep better track of vibrate & the power button ;-)

Second "who woulda thunk it"... and most important...

MonicaDee's in college.... Ohio Christian University, studying to be a Youth Pastor ... and classes start tomorrow... and she lives in a dorm with a best friend who she never thought would be a best friend... (love ya my Skinny Vanilla ;-D) OH and she has a job still @ Kroger :) wohooot! God is always good and faithful :)

three potential mates :) HAHA jk jk. guys are stupid, school & work are my only focuses for right now :)

Who woulda thunk it?...

MonicaDee is a college student ... :)

So ...

I'm 18.

w/ a job.

& a license.

+ college in two weeks.

Yeah ... wow. Who woulda thunk it?

MonicaDee's all growed up :)

MonicaDee <3

I GRADUATE!

HOLY.
CRAP.
I'm graduating.

2-0-0-9 BABY! better believe I am done. My 4 years have been served and I am on my way to my release date June 6, 2009. I only wish parole would have come through but word is you gotta get good grades for that :-p

SO God has done a lot in my life for the past four years. I have been saved for four.25 years (March 9th, 2005). Four years of my salvation has been spent in highschool. And God has brought me through a lot. Deliverance from pain, deliverance from suicide, deliverance from so many sins and temptations.

Who woulda thunk it?
Monica made it through.

But ONLY because God's grace is sufficient and He is good and always faithful :)

It ACTUALLY can teach us something!

So I was watching One Tree Hill the other day, and basically Lucas, the good home town goody-goody guy gets dumped by his fiancee at the altar, then finds out she's dating someone else. so, he loses control and grabs a kid at a basketball game. Then, starts to get drunk almost everynight. His brother, who has been through life-shattering changes b4 and chose to get drunk to hide the pain b4 he came to his senses, (keep in mind, this is a very secular show) says to his older brother (by about three months!), 'There are no answers in the darkness'

There are no answers in the darkness. Darkness meaning Alcohol, Drugs, cutting, whatever you hide behind to get through the pain and numbness of life. Where you try to find the answer, where you seek satisfaction ... anyplace other than Jesus ...


There are no answers there ...

hmm .. wow.

Who woulda thunk it?

Monica actually learned something from One Tree Hill.

MonicaDee <3

WOAH - it's not a JOKE this time???

Ever since kindergarten I've gotten that STUPID joke played on me ... it goes as follows:

Random idiot: Hey, girl, this guy over here, he really likes you! He wants to get wit you

Me (in my annoyed, get out of my face voice): Whatever. I don't date.

or

Me: You're not that lucky and I'M not that desperate


well TODAY ... that same thing happened ... it went as follows:

Sister: Hey, girl, this guy wants to get wit you. You see, he's my brother, and he really likes you. (I roll my eyes) No, fo real. He sweatin' you. (WHO SAYS THAT?!?!)

Me: No thank you. I don't date.

I proceed to walk away, thinking i escaped yet another lame joke that hasn't gotten any unlamer since kindergarten. As I'm walking way, I hear in the background and can't help but laugh with pity/a feeling of sympathy for the kid:

Kid (freshman age): See, I told you she didn't like me like that.

The sister (sophmore, maybe?): Don't sweat it. She don't deserve you no way.


WHAT?!?! He was for real?!?!?!

*laughs hysterically*

WOW ... unbelievable!

Who woulda thunk it?

MonicaDee broke a kid's heart today :-(

MonicaDee

?? Who does that ??

haha .. so I was at the library ... being ME, basically and talking to a friend of mine, when I noticed someone who looked cool :) not like ... cute, or hair looking crazy cool ... but their face was dug into a book and they looked NICE ... FRIENDLY ... FUN.

SO i said 'excuse me one moment while I go randomly introduce myself' and I did just that ... this was their response to my random introduction:

"Is this a dare?"

whoops. Wrong approach on my part :-/ SO, i smiled sweetly, laughed, and said ...

"No. I just like randomly introducing myself to people!" Then gave the BIGGEST grin ever because it seemed to amuse him when I did that ...

his response:

"WHO DOES THAT?"

my response, quite simply was... "Me!" *insert bigger grin here*

we talked, he said that he wished he was more outgoing and that more people should be like me :) yay! A stranger thought I was cool! (and not a creepy stranger either!!)

Who woulda thunk it??

I made a stranger/friend at the library :)

Monica <3

p.s. his name was Robert and he's funny :)